The Maile's

This past weekend Jr. and I were crazily immersed (sp) in a Benefit concert in honor of our brother Naki. We have been planning and preparing for this event for about 6weeks straight. We had been so busy that we didnt process.... that it has been a whole year without him. Jr. did give into that tonight and made some good tear soup. How does one really go on living when someone so dear to you passes on? Not sure but it's been a year and he's still trying to figure things out. Jr. has had many days where he cannot do anything. Depression could quickly be around any corner for him and he knows that. But he works so hard at staying true to Heavenly Fathers plan. I'm so proud of this boy. He amazes me on a daily basis. He has the purest and most genuine heart.

Along with this we have fortunately figured out some important truths. Things I know for sure, # 1. when we are serving others especially Naki's family it doesnt hurt so bad. #2. When we are attending church regularly and fulfilling our callings, again it doesnt hurt so bad. #3. when we are more concerned for others than ourselves......we found our strong, confident selves again.

I received so many kind and sweet compliments about the Concert Jr. and I organized for Naki's family this past weekend. People wrote on my facebook page, sent me heartfelt texts, called me on the phone but the truth is, serving others is really whats helping US! So it's a little selfish in a way too. I felt kinda guilty accepting thanks and praises when I know that I am the one receiving strength and blessings. But I do have to agree with so many that felt like Friday night was amazing. Everything really fell into place so beautifully, that I know for sure (this makes #4) that Heavenly Father and Naki were really mine and Jrs helping hand that night. From the weather to the music to the food to the gracious donations.We're total ameturs what do we know about organizing an event like this? uh nothing! But I should note that we've also been so blessed with this great set of family and friends who are willing to work 12 hours straight without pay..... or food for that matter. I really do adore my sisters and friends. Its hard for me to make decisions without their advice and stamp of approval on it. And not to mention we also have kids who are so flexible that being at a Amphitheater all day was -in Rays words- totally awesome :). This weekend was perfect. I felt Naki's presence so strong at the concert that I started to cry while watching people in line buy nachos!

Although Naki passing away has been tough on my little family..... especially for my Jr. I am starting to see some rainbows in the clouds. Thank you all for your continued love and support for our family and especially Naki's girls.